All it takes is 2 more years....
but again.. will it guarantee anything?
Noone knows what may happen in these 2 years
Will there be someone new? or Will i still stuck on you?
only God knows...
I am not a risk taker.. I am not a brave person..
everyone knows that.. but for this...
i am ready to try..
i am willing to take the risk...
i am willing to make sacrifices..
i am not going to change my mind...
i will not be tempted...
but why... why cant you just take the risk...
well at least you should try...
i just dont understand..
well i know that you're someone who always go with the flow...
you let nature decide your fate..
i dont know who is right this time :)
everyone tell me that i should just act normally
but how can, i when i know that you're trying to draw a line...
well its hard.. really really hard..
cause somehow you've become so called an addiction to me
hahaha well a nicer way to say it is a habit hahah...
well i dunno i am stubborn or do i have high perseverance
but, once again my FAITH will not dim..
Thank God that You gave me the courage to go through these
I know that "All things will work for good for those who love You
and who are called according to ypur purpose (Romans 8:28)"
but again... i will not force anything to happen..
if anything should happen along the way, i will still let Thy will be done :)
cause...
His will is better than my plan and His way is brighter than my way
Jason Mraz song -Lucky- really inspires me HAHAHA
that what i will sing when i passed that 2 years hahaha...
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I miss my friends now... wish i can laugh like nothing happened...
but eleanor notes really made me glad...
"If He brings you to something, He will bring you through it..."
thank u burgerrrrrr :)
thank God for today - 9:35 PM
PUSH- Pray Until Something Happens
I keep praying but there are 2 things that turn out
It goes according to my way and the other one is... you know...
I know i should not give up.. but sometimes maybe giving up is the best way...
Sometimes you felt that you lost hope.. but you know you should not...
I do feel that if u give up now, all the things that u have done in the past will go to waste
But is it all intimidation??? what should i do now??
thank God for today - 5:35 PM
Have you ever feel that you're alive yet you don't think you are...
Life is just about getting up to eat,
watch some show and get back to sleep again...
and the days just past like that...
You sleep to escape things... You sleep to stop thinking...
Everyone wonders what happens to you... But you yourself dont know...
Actually nothing really happens..
Just that your mind is travelling beyond times..
Thinking too much of what is happening on the other side of the world
it's just your thinking... NOTHING is happening out there...
You need times to be by yourselves, but you are afraid to be alone...
You dont want to worry others around you...
You know they care about you...
but no matter what they do, it doesnt seem to please you..
You completely forget how to get alive again..
You forget who are you.. How you used to be...
You are speechless.. dont know what to say
You dont know what you're feeling...
Maybe you know.. just that you dare not face the reality..
You laugh but is your heart happy?
You cry but that doest shed your trouble away
You wish you were somewhere else but still you wont feel peace
You gave advices to your friends but why cant you advice yourself...
Sometimes you wonder maybe its better to be a bad girl
To be out in a wild... doing all things just to keep your mind occupied..
but you know thats not what you want...
Father, hear my cry... You know this is not easyfor me Lord.. I've been through it the first time.. Now, i'm sure i can pass this again.. Your hand is never too short to help me Lord Help me to get alive, show me what i should do Help me to control my thoughts, lead me not into temptations Lead me to your plan, let Your will be done Be with me and never let me go.. Amen
thank God for today - 1:33 PM
Happy to be homeee :)
But thing are so unexpected here...
its like being blindfolded on a roller coaster ride..
i dont know whether i'm up or down...
i dont know when is the next turn..
i dont know whether it's going up..
or i'm going to be thrown down..
i wish i can just open my eyes to see the full ride..
it's partially my own fault..
noone ask me to take the ride...
everyone knows i'm afraid of the game...
but why i still take the challenge...
ony God knows why...
now that i'm in it..
noone can get me out..
dont ask me to jump down...
i only hope i can open my eyes..
so i can prepare my heart...
It started on great.. i believe it will also end great :)
thank God for today - 6:42 PM
I am so happy that exam is finally over... 5 consecutive days of exam is definitely brain draining..
It also mark the end of poly life...
Tomorrow i will be departing to indonesia... wuaaaa i am so exciteddd 2 full months there..
though i don't know what to do there, i believe God has planned great things there :)
Met up with Jerald and Eleanor for dinner and movie...
It was a black and yellow night (even jerald's plastic bag is yellow) hahaha..
Thanks guys for the dinner and movie :) Meet up again when i came back ya...
provided Jerald has not go for ns yet...
 Wanted to meet angie and jingting but it's all cancelled...
But its ok... we will meet when i came back ya :)
Brother bear... i'll miss u... All the best for SIM ok dont skip class that often ok :p
I am so sad that i have to say good bye to my friends...
3 years of togetherness definitely left me with sweet memories...
Thank you all for what had happened... Cant control my tears now...
Especially when i read angie sms... thanks all :)
have to start packing now... see u guys...
take care ok God Bless :)
thank God for today - 10:58 PM
3 years have passed... 3 years of projects and exams...
other than that?? hm... let me try to remember one by one...
- orientation was ok but kind of waste time hahah and there, i met Farah.. she's the first friend i had in NYP
- when i first met angie the first thing i asked was, "are you from China?" ahhaha but she's not
- econs presentation "do u have any facts to support your answer?" does that ring a bell...
- north canteen fried fish banmian that already closed down hahah that's the best food in NYP
- is it oral com or effective writting presentation where we did the M-burger? and we took alex picts with burger ahahha...
- having skit with yongxian, alex and jingting will always ended up funny without fail cause there will be some impromptu acts that they added in that makes the skit even more funny :)
- angie's reciting the whole law section during business law presentation
- we sold jt share in FSRC and she was very very mad at me
- OSEP!!! that was the best.. altough it's only for 4 months. thank God that i made 2 new best friend.. Eleanor and Jearld :)
- yong tau hu, tomyum banmian hahhaha
- crm presentation where i become a television muahahaha
- queueing at printing shop
- daily sms angie before class "angie, where r u?"
- waking jingting up and ended up she syill not coming to class HAHAHHA
- taping minimum TWO cards before lecture (haha JT card is always with me hahah)
- browsing for new rarecards with jingting
i cant think for more as for now....
but although not much memories i can remember but some that i can distinctly remember are those i will always remember forever :)
all the best to all my friends, do keep in touch always ya....
it takes two hands to clap, it takes two people to keep the friendship going :)
9 more days to the last day of exam... cant wait for it to be over...
12 more days to be back indonesia... cant wait to leave singapore hahhaha
previously case closed matter is now brought back again
PERFECT!!! my feelings is once again thrown up and down...
i have no idea what will happen this time... hope it will ended up fine :)
thank God for today - 11:44 AM
Happy new year everyone...
For the old has gone and the new has come (2 Corinthians 5:17)
2008 was a great year.. A lot of things happened that the year past so fast..
new friends, best friend, travel around Europe, IPP, etc.. what else can i ask for
Thank God for all that happened :)
Here are some photos taken last year..
2008 Asian Conference
Christmas exchange present.. Mine is from Jing Ting...
Reversible head lamp with alarm clock
Dinner at CityHall Thai Express after tiring AIHF paper hahaha...
 Went back to Indonesia during 2 weeks break... So happy and excited :)
The moment i have been waiting for since 2007 has finally come..
But now things have changed..
i am still me but you are no longer you, but that doesn't change how i feel for you..
ok enough of that.. i am moving on :)
On the way from church..
Nice door gift.. a delicious biscuit
 Did nothing much in indo this time.. not much shopping.. accompanying my grandparents at home.. Helped in Christmas decoration it was so fun.. What makes this Christmas memorable is the fact that i went for a mission by giving food to the poor people and kids on the street.. well, there are a lot of them in indonesia.. Seeing their happy and grateful face upon receiving the food realy touches my heart.. we dont know when did they had their last meal.. Hope that i can do that more often.. Thank God that we can all still have so much food everyday :) DM Christmas celebration 2008 "What Gift Can Make God Joy"
25 Dec 2008
Christmas Service at SCCC
 During the sermon, the message is that 2009 is a year of creative miracle and healing..
the key to that is just BELIEVE.. With God, all things are possible :)
Was recommended to read this book by my cousin.. was reluctant at first cause its quite thick.. but gave in in the end and I'm hooked to it.. Now I'm recommending it to everyone :)
It's a really nice book.. learn a lot form this book..
 Bought few cooking book and tried one of the recipe...
I DID IT!!!
i successfully made an edible brownie hahaha...
 Back to Singapore and began my counting down to the end of school to motivate myself..
Cant wait to graduate and I'm FREE!!!! as at today.. left 35 more days..
and in these 35 days there will be 4 projects submission, 3 presentations and 5 final exam!!
God, bless me hope that i will get through all these well and get good results :)
I have been having cravings for ban mian especially dry ban mian hahha...
all thanks to Eleanor Ang Pei Shi HAHAHAHA..
and oh ya... MS. Ang Pei Shi Welcome to the world of 20s hahahha...
Happy that school will soon end but kind of sad as i have to part with my friends..
especially those few that I'm always together with since year 1...
making a wake up call and leaving 20+ missed calls.. eating yong tau hu and tom yum ban mian..
tapping attendance.. drawing lots for projects.. rushing last minute projects.. skits and presentations.. copying down tutorial answers.. printing exam papers..
thanks for the friendship and memories :)
hope that the friendship will not be left behind in NYP but will always be carried in our hearts as we move on in our life... that makes us not just poly friends but true friends :)
- ok when jt read this she'll ask me to stop my mushy word, but that not mushy that's heart to heart talk hahaha -
Finally presented HRM.. It was funny but that last skit is going to be memorable haha..
"Ba Wang" "Olypic torchlight" "TV" "CANON video camera" "microphone" and definitely MUAHAHAHAHAHA
 Group 4 syidah, eunice, ms. diana tan, jingting, mariana, angie, guojie 
thats all for now... i'm supposed to be sleeping or doing project but here i am blogging hahahha...
i dont need many friends
all i need is just few true friends
thank God for friends :)
thank God for today - 1:16 AM
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